Tuesday, June 13, 2006
goodness..i feel so guilty 2dae larr..frm morn..duno y kip thinking abt paul..
aiyo..realli larr..veri seldom see a guy tt noes wad he is doing clearly..
then aftnn wtch tv programme..see my idol jolin on tv....worse!
she is lik those tt started off her career in uni daes..then lik discriminated by sum..yet her results were lik average 80+ marks..n she was juggling wif her career! omg.. then she veri good at dances(extra activities)..her personality is those kind more cheerful aft dealing wif obstacles..
make me feel so useless..lik i no aim in my life..dunno wad to do in future..then later in e nite..i saw tis show..abt a gurl she wanna study filiming..she noes there is little future wif other competitive students..bt she still noes wad she is doing n carries on..arghh is lik..waa..i damn failure laa..
here i am..juz slacking..sad case man..feel a bit useless..
ok i analyse wad i hav:
nw i am lik juz study study study..then lik i duno study 4 wad?
1 worry: in e end scared cnt cope?
2 worry: e things i study nt relevant 4 my future?
3 worry: even if relevant..cn i succeed in it?
aiyarr..make me sooo guilty..lik nw i doing nt sufficient..arghh..bt then wanna do well..lik no motivation 2 push me oso...arghh! hate tis lazy me!








