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ever since i'm in jc, i know tt there will be lesser indulgements.
e leisure of getting cosy in e sofa, reading a book n listening to my fabulous music.
lazing n sleeping.
think tt there will seldom be time for these in e near future. life maybe going full speed nxt year.
non-stop. woosh.

i dunwanna use my brain so much. in this world, where everything requires explanation n everchanging trends. sometimes it's eating into u. at such an age 17, already, experienced tiredness. in pleasing people in this practical world. the false masks n all that. pathetic.
mayb some just fit into e world, bt some struggle to get e approvals, just for a happy day.
to slog ur guts out for a happy day has nt much satisfaction as those days where u get happy without much effort being put in to make it an enjoyable day. bt sadly, it doesn't come so easy.
harr.really wish for a world where naive minds still exist.
so childish of me to think of tt. stupid me. if only i can make a mask tt is so happy tt is doesn't stop smiling 24 hrs around. n i cn still frown at ease behind tt mask.

went vivo went mina n xingxing. slacked at starbucks aft all tt walking. think mina really wanted to wtch a movie huh? played with cam phone, continously taking shots of xingxing n mina. tsktsk. think they are so fed up tt they r so helpless n end up doing nothing to shun my cam phone. so i just snap snap snap n snap. happy moments. hehh me n mina will trying to stop xingxing frm smoking. hahh dun let her get out of air conditioned areas. muahahaa
cos i wanna go home for dinner, mina arranged programmes for nite le. later at e park, xingxing n i were planning to record our ringtones. my evil laughters n e honey part.
hehh so proud of my voice huh. xingxing did an omg ringtone for me. hahh
to xingxing: i customised my ringtone to tt. whoo! so everyone who call me will get to hear ur marvellous voice! hahh!

woots! last dae of school!
sounds nice huhh. bt hidden behind it all is returning to school for project work, chinese a levels left on our own to revise..tons of hol assg. n wad? lots of topical tests to study for beofre the nxt term starts.
which means that we have 6 really free weeks to start on our work after deducting daes to slog our guts out gfor pw n chinese. okay chinese nt as much. hahh bt have to minus 1 week for shanghai trip. another week for interact events. argh. is 1 month enough?
ok. dun be so pessimistic. hmm..yar last dae of shool..
tons of free periods. went to mac n saw yaoie's class. wad the. finished so early.
when we have to be tormented by waiting for 2hrs to get our report card but yaoie's class have already received theirs. eww.
bt we played poker cards like no one's business. told u it is a really free day. hahh
then continued playing from ard 12.10 to 1.30pm..tsk tsk.
some frens pon their cca n went cs wtch movie!
rushed from cs shaw to tm gv. decided to wtch d.o.a.
tsktsk. nice graphics, background, costumes, cool actions. bt e movie looks so arcade-ish.
like somehow, the fighting overtakes the whole storyline. and it ended so soon, ard 1hr20mins.
hahh then we went cuckoo. agreed to wtch another movie. as a result, me so broke. sobx.
finished at 4pm n bought e tickets for silk at 4.15pm.
as usual, chiong to e toilet n down to e counter to purchase tickets then chiong up to the seats n in time for silk. hahh
silk is so much better than d.o.a. it's a combination of thrillers, abit action packed, horror. whoo!
nw i sorta know how ghosts exist..cool man..hope i dun ever be one. hahh a bit educational abt life too. halfway thrgh e show, mag grabbed my hands and was looking up at me like ju-on. goodness. so freaky. black black eyes.
hmm after e whole movie marathon, my butt is sore from sitting. at this rate, i cn really be a movie critics. hahh..hmm nt bad huh. felt so relaxed todae after all those stresses. whoo!

all e happy moments wif my frens!




photos uploaded on e promotional dae.
e dae where the fate of some youths are set.



stupid haze.

sometimes life is so tragic.
there are forever worse things in life. so much that u cannot help them with.
so much to care that i shut my eyes to them.
so much to give bt i could nt or unwilling to give up.
so much so much so much
tt i dun feel like doing anything.
duno wad's e best for them.
how i really wish i could share and give them my happiness.
a sense of relief.

sometimes it's best to ignore the truth.
for e truth hurts.
even if ignored, it will still eat into ur heart and stay there.
this is my way of handling things.
those i cn, i console.
those i cn't, i shut my eyes to them.
bt does it help?

out with mag, jy, emu,qq, ah qing, mike,liyu
went to shop at NTUC for e class bbq.
ok nt e class. is part of the class.
whoo. played cards thrghout.
n stayed up till 3am to wtch aquamarine.
wanted to wtch white noise at 3.30am.
bt uh-huh..hehh
damn hardworking seh dean's grp.
it's already like 2am n they r still at e com working out their WR.
goodness.
how pw takes up our sleeping time..tsk tsk.
left early at 8+ n went to watch deathnote wif nana, yaoie, dan, zhihui
i been anticipating sO long.
hahh..
e L is supposed to be a brillant yet weird kid.
bt e movie make him to be kinda..funni. hahh
sweet toothed. e part where he dips his lollipop into his drinks with more than 4 cubes of sugar.
goodness. he's so L. hah
hmm...actually e comic is so much better than e movie.
u shld really see e comics instead of the movies.
it is more intelligent, plotting of strategies to see L or light win e "game".
i juz luv smart shows.

it our group's turn to chiong for written report.
rushed it thrgh from 4pm to 10pm.
whew
tough work seh.
bt 1st time i realised how hardworking our group is without our leader.
hahh cos wif our great leader, we tend to slack.
hehh then she was absent 2dae and we r supposed to hand in e wr by 6pm 2dae.
so chiong like siao.
how the presence of 1 person has an impact on a whole group..

sch nw is simply boring.
how i wish they just release us n let us end earlier or early hols.
then we have more time to devote to pw n chinese wad? right?
i even pon chinese 2dae to do pw lor. oops.
n so tired already still have lessons at the end of the day.
goodness.
anyway had a long bus trip home. took and transfered 2 buses from ang mo kio back to my house. took quite a while. around 1.5 hrs. tsk tsk.

finally watched finished tokyo juliet. wu zun(e main actor) is so good looking.
hehh
n got those boyish looks. aiyo. heart melt.
hehh sweet storyline..bt i dozed off a few times.
n i bought a new phone.
6233.
nice.
radio,mp3,camera,64mb,2G,bluetooth,infra-red..more than happy sia
though spent a long time queuing..
tt's e price u have to pay for a $48 phone with free bluetooth headset.
cheap rite?
cos gt discount for taxi drivers mahh..so dad drove us to yio chu kang comunity centre to buy at an early 7.30 morning.
then by e time i gt my phone satisfied it was 11am already.
e whole morning gone juz lidat.
i am so afraid of e phone being scratched tt i put it on a piece of tissue.
hahh. brand new u know? n i am so clumsy.
in e end bought a pouch n put it in. whew.
bt in e end oso kana scratched. on e 1st dae i bought. great.
anyway, is this week e last week of sch or 2more weeks to go?
i tot aft promos then nt much time left b4 e start of hols?
i am so in hol mood..dunwanna study. nononoooo..hehhh

gt my results back.
bio -E
maths-A
gp -E
chem -B
econs -A
claps. whew.
oni for promos.
nt combined wif e common test yet.
will oni noe on mon 3rd period, which was supposedly recess.
still confused abt e conditional promotion.
been asking some teachers. mostly said depend on e whole cohort n guess wad?
there's a tropical test meant for u to study in e hols.
argh

wadeva comes ur way then u deal wif it.
i'm nt tt long sighted to have plan so much.
incase wad u plan backfires or go onto a wrong path and u end up more disappointed.
nw is a tempo break. then chinese a's. and oral presentation.

so high aft e chinese anchor test. hahh. duno why. probably glad tt it's finally a weekend tt no need studying.
test was kinda difficult. bt i still had 15 mins to spare and drew on e lecture table.
drew a couple and wrote yul rawk! hahh too engrossed in goong.
cn find it at LT1 e middle block last row. who knows maybe some famous artist see it n nominate me as e best scribbler award. hehhh
i was imitating how e emperor walked in his long robe.
so one leg will be infront of another, walk in big steps.. then pretend holding up e long robe.
hahh
then laughed n laughed. think some behind n some infront stared at me. hahh
heck la. i have no image anyway.
to live life e fullest.

yepp went out.
walking in orchard under such hazy conditions was like walking in a foreign place.
so cool. nv experienced b4 sia.
walk walk walk.
my mood gets worse as it gets later into e nite.
as usual.
n e guys were still e same. humph.
it gets unbearable when nana n yaoie go buy food. then leave us there.
then again guys buy food. then leave us gals there.
so much time wasted. duno wad we doing oso.
i rather slacked at home.
hmm.. ok e good pt is at least we met up n said hi. rite?

then went back home. still lousy mood.
e best way is to sleep it off.
if i forgo onli a few hrs of sleep..i will have serious after effects.
hahh dun ask me. i need sleep de. more than e rest. bt look horribly more than e rest too without tt few hrs of sleep.
woke up n slept woke up n slept throughout e nite
by irritating mina.
hehh
duno how juggle btw family n frens.
heng dad called we 3 to go shopping.
or not i oso duno wad they will be doing spending hrs in e foodcourt n supermarket.
hai shi papa hao. know how to spare a thought for others.
yepp. so nice to have frens like family. hehh let's go for more outings despite tight schedules.
such a pleasure in life to have enough sleep n food in life.
hahh
spend e whole of today doing interact stuff n watching a new series.dong fang zhu li ye.
e main actor is so nice looking. hehh
hmm. watched a bit if da chang jin. played a bit of basketball. oh man.i sucked at it.
yepp n now 7pm
GOONG!

oh my.
when i logged onto tpjc net. they have already set up e date for project work talks on e 1st dae when we return to sch.
goodness.
so rush for wad?
relax man.
cos promos is over! hipees.
went "kbox" at a really cheap place. just $8 for 5hrs non-stop singing with 1 free drink.
this is so much affordable than e expensive one in e real k box..$20++ per person..
but the place ok la. such a good deal man. nxt time intro frens go there too..wahahh
hmm. sorry gals. dad wana me to stay home to coach my bro.
hahh
wad cn i do besides scolding him man?
how to go abt teaching stuff like history? english?
hmm..furthermore, his exams is just nxt wk? got time mehh??
haiz.
n btw. my dad dun allow me to go out. bt this doesn't mean frens cn come n visit me rite?
get e hint??? wahha
duno la.
stay home lor.

aiyo.my mom scare me 2dae.
said tot i go out wif bf aft sch.
though she meant as a joke
bt sometimes feel that she so dun understand me la.
my dad understands me better than my mom lorr.
biased.
n i want more free daes.

no i haven finish my exams yet..in 2more days. then yes.
bt time passes so quickly..omg. i take like so long to revise only 1 chapter..average 2hrs..
cn't realli say i gonna do well n all. realised i nt as motivated n concentrated now.
why why why
goodness concentration!
even now when i am supposed to be studying my maths..hahh wad am i doing huhh?
hehhh
wish for time to pass quickly like the movie,click. then whoosh, e whole mugging process is gone frm my life. bt hope time will stop for me to finish my revision. eek!