Monday, March 09, 2009
this is just so sad.i just clicked on the results for econs midterms.
and after scrolling and affirmation;
i verified a C grade in my NUS first year,
dashing my hopes of any honours or 1st class.
what's more is A CORE MODULE.
goshh. that test was 45% of my module!
gone.
and to think i was pondering previously about what future it holds after my uni life.
like where could i go, and what will i do if i don't work in related careers.
OMG.
i know how this course is so not suitable.
but then i thought somehow it will fit in,
like how i used to loathe geography but somehow still include it as my electives in secondary school...
now it just feels like an odd piece from the puzzle.
and my dad asked.
what do you want to be when you graduate?
i shrugged.
it's not as if i haven give any serious thought to this,
but the dreams i want, are ENTIRELY different from what i am doing now.
and it takes so much determination and time and support to switch
it's not that easy.
totally have no idea what i am doing.
i'm not the kind that have smart brains
neither the kind that is street smart
so i know i will not do great in life..
but then i don't dare to do the things i like
and end up contemplating throughout my life
what the crap.
when reality crashes in.
oh man.
what do you do if u get this score??
(A) give up the whole mod
(B) score for the later part
(C) give up the whole uni life
i am thinking about C.
it's really damn TIRING.
totally understand why that fella from NTU jumped to death.
yikes yikes.
then again.
i will definitely choose b la.
which idiot will do A and endanger your whole CAP?!
not like one failure is gonna get me down.
BUT A SERIES WILL.
so just let me cry in this post and sob a million more times,
before falling back to the confused life i am having